Recording For August 18, 2016

(week 241) 18 August 2016 12-step study Big Book All Addictions workshop

Group membership
There are no requirements for membership of this group. You may not be on amends (where we are) you may be dealing with step one. That is fine. All of these steps support one another so if you are still on step 4 you can be listening to step 9 and it doesn’t matter. It is like step 9 supports step 4 or step 1. Or you may be all done with steps 8 and 9 and you can still come, because step 9 supports living in steps 10, 11 and 12. I know I will never lose my need of doing steps 1-12. So you can be guaranteed that I am going to be taking you through the steps for the rest of my life. And you can choose to come or not to come. It is up to you.

To join the members list, be sent the soul work and/or you would like a buddy, contact
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8am EST Tuesdays workshop (same tel. no.) Callback: 641 715 3900 pin 298913#
Nearing the end of studying Bill W’s biography ’Pass It On’ .
The group will next read the stories at the back of the Big Book.

If you would like to contact Stephanie
stephaniew324@gmail.com

Donations are needed towards the cost of the website.

Please send to:
Stephanie Whiting
P O Box 531
North Pembroke
MA 02358

or via Pay Pal on the website: 12stepstudyworkshop.com (click on Thursday).

Soul work
In answer to a question about making amends, Stephanie reminded us that in Al-Anon sobriety is defined as detachment with love. And it is important to always to be kind.. So use the acronym: THINK before taking action and ask ourselves is it:

T ruthful?
H onest?
I mportant?
N ecessary?
K ind?

Big Book Into Action Steps 8 & 9 page 83:1

‘Yes, there is a long period of reconstruction ahead. We must take the lead. A remorseful mumbling that we are sorry won;t fill the bill at all. We ought to sit down with the family and frankly analyse the past as we now see it, being very careful not to criticise them. Their defects may be glaring, but the chances are that our own actions are partly responsible. So we clean house with the family, asking each morning in meditation that our Creator show us the way of patience, tolerance, kindliness and love.”

Q1. Write on these five sentences (there is a lot here) and pick them apart.

Q2. ‘There is a long period of reconstruction ahead’. What does that mean to you?

Q3. We must take the lead.
a) What does that mean?
b) How do we do that?
c) Where are you with it?

Living amends is a wonderful thing because everyone who touches your life is a winner.
Q4. Where are you?

‘Their defects may be glaring, but the chances are that our own actions are partly responsible.’
Q5. There is no-one in the world who is perfect. So how is their defect hooking us?

Recording for August 11, 2016

(Sorry…there is no recording available for this particular workshop.)

(week 240) 11 August 2016 Big Book Step Study

AA Big Book: Chapter 6 Into Action.
From: Page 82:1 “Perhaps there are some cases where the utmost frankness is demanded…”
until top of page 83: line 1: “Yes, there is a long period of reconstruction ahead.”

We may not have done the exact same thing (as that written in the Big Book) but we can:

1) Thank God in humility that we didn’t do something we are hearing somebody else did;
2) That is waiting for me if I am not vigilant;
3) I now have something to help somebody else. I have learnt.

I can have some compassion for the man or woman who had an extra marital affair. Can have compassion for the other person. Can walk side by side with someone. And guide them not shame them. Encourage them. Help, guide them into what is the right amends.

So everything about making amends is important to us. Because underneath making amends are eight previous steps: hitting bottom, knowing how powerless you are over your own behaviour and that you may not have had an extra marital affair but you could not stop eating, drinking alcohol, there is not that much of a difference. That person could not control his sex drive, I could not control my desire to look good, so taking diet pills. By the time we get to step 9, I pray that I can see that you are eligible too Stephanie. You were there. They are powerless over their sex drive, you Stephanie are powerless over co-dependency, diet pills, alcohol, sugar etc., on the continuum I am not less valuable because I am powerless over clutter, clothes, TV, alcohol, than someone who will say: “I am just powerless over gambling, that is the only thing I ever did.”

We do not compare. We don’t have a scale 1-10: I am better than them because… or they are worse than me because… By the time we get to step 8 we see our own mistakes and we keep the focus on: I made mistakes, I am not a mistake. I don’t want to make any more mistakes, God help me. But if I do, I know what to do, to write it down, how to approach somebody. I don’t say: I only did blah blah while they did blah. We stop playing that game in our heads.

Hopefully we have recovered to the point where we are praying all the time. We are minding our own business and we are helping others in a loving compassionate way. So we are praying and when I say minding our own business let me describe what I mean. Then I want you to write on this. You may not even agree on this.

Praying: we have our Quiet Time and we bring whatever we need to to God. After we have read our literature, we Write a
Dear God letter, we bring our heart to God, we bring what we need guidance with and we ask for an
Action Plan. We make an action plan for the day. We pray all day to do that action plan with the help of God. Then we mind our own business.

It means firstly, love and tolerance of everybody else. Then we take care of ourselves spiritually emotionally by working inch by inch on our action plan, and we take care of ourselves physically . I didn’t want to go to my workout yesterday but I have balance and posture problems. I don’t have enough muscle mass to be considered healthy so those three areas are very deficient so I drag myself to class. Part of my action plan is doing it Monday Wednesday and Friday – doing exactly what the professional taught me to do. I did not want to. I did it. I had to make a phone call, somebody called me about something. I had responsibility, a meeting I am responsible to. I go to my spiritual house of worship doing my own prayers, quiet time. Spiritual first, then emotional and then physical.

I took three 20 minute power naps one in the morning one in the afternoon and one at night. At night I have a commitment 7.30-8.30pm and if I had not taken a power nap would not have made it.
That is taking care of myself. How many sponsees did I talk to?. Probably three or four. I am not saying this to put myself on any pedestal. I am saying that pray all day, your spiritual recovery and your emotional recovery is your action plan which you have gotten through your spiritual life. I have accountability around that. And then physical recovery. We don’t judge other people and when others ask for help because I am spiritually, emotionally and physically fit. I don’t think of myself better or worse and I have something to offer. I have just spent 20 minutes on living amends.

Q1. What is living amends? I want you to summarise what living mends means to you.

Stephanie told you what living amends is to her. Believe me not every day do I take three 20-minute power naps! I have walked and done some yoga for 35 years. I am at the weight the doctor wants me to be at, and I never felt healthier yet a professional physician is telling me I am physically unfit! I don’t have to have falls of pride today by saying: Look I weigh and measure my food . I did not have to do that. I said thank you for your input. I went home and I brought it to God and I brought it to my accountability partners.

And I had a hard time! I had a hard time for a couple of months. But I made an action plan and I have been doing it since June. So it is not long but feels like forever! You get what I am saying? This is living amends to the people who love me, because I want to live a long life. I have a husband who is going to live to 95. He never went on a physical equipment in his life but is in good shape and he works so hard. We have a son and for you my sponsees I want to walk in this recovery for a long time. I want my last breath to be given over to helping somebody. That is my prayer to God: Help me to be useful for others God. And so it is living amends.

And its a wonderful lesson for me to bring to all of us. That pride becomes before the fall. And I could be very prideful “but you don’t understand etc.” I do understand I am not physically fit. There is a huge deficiency. I cannot stand on one foot with my eyes closed. I could not do six seconds. Now I can do eleven. But you have to go to 30! I am not making this a physical fitness group. What I am making it I made the mistake of thinking I was OK when I was not. That is why we need each other. That is why we need to be humble and we need to first take care of our spiritual life. If we pick step 9 and you really want to go on and live a recovered life your spiritual life has to take precedence. Then your emotional. You do an action plan. You stay current with your inventory. Stay current: am I resentful? Am I fearful? Am I dishonest?

Am I willing to go to any lengths? So that is what I want you to write down. .. Am I acting out? Am I acting in any way that does not show tolerance?

Q2.
1) Am I resentful or angry in any way?
2) Am I acting out in a selfish way?
3). Am I dishonest in any way shape or form?
4). Am I fearful?
5). Am I willing to go to any lengths to clean up any one of those areas?

Page 82.

There is plenty we should do at home? What did I just tell you I did yesterday?. I went to God, and worked my action plan and I helped others. I took care of the spiritual, emotional and physical and I helped others. Was I willing to go to any lengths? Yesterday afternoon at 1.45 I literally dragged scuffing my feet into the gym. Thats going to any lengths. For two cents I would have gone home and taken a nap. I would love to say I came out of there feeling great. All I felt was I did what I said I was going to do. I felt totally spent. And I came home and I took a nap then at 4pm I had an hour with a sponsee. Working through a program with her. and then dinner with my husband then before my commitment at 7.30 I took another 20 minute power nap. Did I feel great yesterday? No. But when I went to bed last night I thanked God I did my action plan and put God first. I did my emotional and physical recovery. When I say I weigh and measure my food, that means for me doing my dishes. I have my dishes all made for the next two days. Leaving at 6am on Saturday for another workshop. The bed was made, the room was decluttered. I just say ‘weighed and measured my food but that means everything in my home is done. I thank God because God gives me that ability. That is step 9. Do not put me on any pedestal. I am just another bozo on the bus. I remember seeing a picture of a bunch of bozos on a bus going to a children’s hospital to bring a little joy. That is what I want to do, be one among many. Bring a little joy to other people. I am not more than, less than.. I make mistakes I am not a mistake. That is a living amends to God and others. I am not getting too big for my shoes or the least.. I am just another recovered alcoholic, food addict, one day at a time doing the right thing. You don’t have to be the best or the least – just be the best you are today.

“If we have no such complication, there is plenty we should do at home. Sometimes we hear an alcoholic say that the only thing he needs to do is to keep sober…”

The ‘home’ is us. We are the home. There’s plenty to be done. I am going to another drive of two hours up and down to another workshop because this home needs a lot of work and I have to go to where they are teaching how to make my home better. This is a spiritual workshop. And then as I repair this home and maintain this home with nothing resentful, not acting out. not being dishonest, not living in fear and being willing to go to any lengths then my home, spouse, children, siblings, parents if they are alive,neighbours, a spiritual community, 12-step community, all of them are in better shape because I am there.

When my home, me, is in fit spiritual emotional and physical condition then the larger home that I live in is in a better condition because I am there. When I am broken down and I go to a family party that family party is like the front door is broken. The whole house is not falling down but a part of it is. So as I make my home with God healthier., I make the bigger home I live in healthier. That is what I see out of this line.

The most self-centred and misguided person is the one who says: “the only thing I need to do is keep sober.” Have love for them. See if you can sponsor them. You don’t want them to live too long with that solution.

“…Certainly he must keep sober, for there will be no home if he doesn’t. But he is yet a long way from making good to the wife or parents whom for years he has so shockingly treated. Passing all understanding is the patience mothers and wives have had with alcoholics. Had this not been so, many of us would have no homes today, would perhaps be dead.”

Remember you can always thank people. When all else fails, when you don’t know what to say, .you can always say: “I was so blessed to have you as a mother.” “I am so grateful God gave me you as a brother.” Or an aunt, a teacher, a pastor, whatever, a spiritual director, a sponsor. Thank you. I am so grateful God gave me you. That may be the only appropriate amends. “Thank you for coming into my life. You taught me a lot. You gave me a lot. I am grateful.”
It is not good if you went over in detail the harms done and would bring up bad memories for them when too much water over the dam and they would not understand. Just a sincere thank you is so important in making amends. It will heal your heart. Of course you will read to me or your group how you hurt or harmed them. To them you just say: “Thank you for being in my life.”

“This alcoholic is like a tornado roaring his way through the lives of others. Hearts are broken .Sweet relationships are dead. Affections have been uprooted. Selfish and inconsiderate habits have kept the home in turmoil. We feel a man is unthinking when he says that sobriety is enough. He is like the farmer who came up out of his cyclone cellar to find his home ruined. To his wife he remarked, “Don’t see anything the matter here Ma. Ain’t it grand the wind stopped blown’?”

That is a perfect take of all I need to do to stay sober. It is a beginning of course. This always brings tears to my eyes. I ruined so many sweet loves and friendships but all we can do is know we made mistakes, apologise from our hearts. Don’t look at what they did and know that I have made mistakes and with God’s help I do not have to make those mistakes again and I am a woman with dignity under God. And maybe others don’t want to give me dignity. It is up to them. God will always give me dignity. When I admit I am wrong I admit my mistakes. I try to make it right before God, the other person, under the generalship of a 12-step sponsor.

I am 66 years old, I will jump through any hoop I have to, to be right with God. If I am carrying a resentment, if my behaviour is unacceptable, if I am not 100 percent honest or living in fear of people I am not making God no. 1. Then I will pick up the food. That is the one along with co-dependency that I need constant vigilance to stay out of resentment, selfish behaviour, dishonesty, fear and keep the willingness to do the spiritual emotional and physical discipline. And without that I will go back. I know it.

I am just going to leave you with this:

Big Book: Page 83 line l: “Yes, there is a long period of reconstruction ahead.”

Q3. Write on the long period of construction ahead. What does that mean?

Are you ever going to be done? No. You are never going to get done with amends. Why? We live our recovery one day at a time. We live our amends and once we have gone to people and they have received their amends, they are going to be watching us. And so that is why we have the spot check inventory that I gave you.

So I want you to write on those things that I have mentioned. Yes its a long period of construction ahead. Write on that along with the living amends that I told you about I told you what mine was, write on your own and own it. Own your own recovery. because your recovery is not just yours, it belongs to the world. That is living amends.

On the next page of my big book I have written: “Just keep quiet Stephanie”. Sometimes that is the best amends. Loving does not mean we always have to have an answer. It means we lovingly listen to other people . And tolerant that they have not had the years of recovery that we have had. I cannot give them 38 years of recovery. What I can do is listen lovingly. and maybe have a pearl of wisdom, though it may not be one. If I don’t really hear something I keep quiet today.

It takes time. Time is what we have

Time is our best friend, when in doubt don’t. What do you do? You keep praying. You keep bringing it to Quiet Time. “I don’t know what else to do.” Pray pray pray.

And work on what I have told you: living amends spiritual life emotional recovery, physical recovery and pray do it one day and then do it the next day. And you know what, you will get the answer. You will know. How? You will get to know that intuition that the Big Book talks about it. The intuition about what is the next right action. And you have got a clear road ahead. The fog is lifted and you have a clear road and you know exactly what you need to do, you know how to do it and with God’s help and an action plan you are going to do it inch by inch.

I really have nothing else to tell you.We have had two people on this call say that before they didn’t know what to do. Before they would have acted differently now they knew. They knew intuitively and did not act in the same old way.
So now you have me telling you and two of your group members. That is recovery. We are recovered one day at a time. We are never finished. That is what the Big Book says.

It says: Yes theres a long reconstruction period ahead. Again until we go in the ground. Living amends very important.

I had that No Never they did me wrong attitude. I think God could part the sea easier than change that. But my sponsor promised me that if you do these steps in order and you have Quiet Time every day and you ask God for the next right action, by the time you get to step 8 you will be chomping at the bit to make amends. Three people in a row have now said they have had a changed attitude and a changed attitude means a change behaviour.

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Recording for August 4, 2016

(week 239) August 4 2016 12 Step Study Big Book All Addictions Workshop.

Big Book Into Action page 78:3

“Perhaps we have committed a criminal offence which might land us in jail if it were known to the authorities. We may be short in our accounts and unable to make good. We have already admitted this in confidence to another person, but we are sure we would be imprisoned or lose our job if it were known…”

Underline the words as shown above.
When doing your own amends always share these things with someone else.

Write on these two major questions:

Q1. Having the other one’s happiness uppermost in my mind is the most important thing when making amends.

Q2. Can I make amends to ……..(go through the major people you have to make amends to) accepting that they may not let me off the hook with forgiveness?

These are two really important step 8 questions. [As a group we are really only on step 8. We are only doing step 9 because some of you are already making amends.]
Do not make amends until your heart is ready to do this with God, knowing you are on a life and death errand. That is when you go to make amends. It is not to be rushed into it. Check your motives and ask yourself: “Am I just doing this to feel better?”

Q3. ‘I can do anything I want so long as I stay sober in AA’ (or whatever is your main fellowship). Write on this.

When I hear this at AA meetings I want to jump out of my skin. No we cannot do anything we want and my abstinence, sobriety, recovery from co-dependency, etc., cannot be at the expense of other people. In the past I have not taken care of myself and made my husband turn inside out so I could be sober and abstinent That is not fair. I needed to make amends. “I am really sorry I did not bring my food with me and now we cannot do what we planned on doing. Now I have to make you responsible for getting my food.” Now I always have back-up in my car. I do not treat my husband in a shocking way any more. But I did. My abstinence had to be his abstinence and I learnt that is so selfish and self-centred of me. Because abstinence is not the most important thing, living a God-honouring life is. Honouring God, honouring the people I am with and my abstinence is a responsibility for me to live a God-honouring life and I will do that. I know what I have to do to be God honouring about my behaviour with my husband and other people and what I have to do to take care of my relationship with God. If I fail to eat on my food plan, my relationship fails to be God honouring. It is a beautiful way of life.

Q3 Seeking more attention (key word is ‘more’) than what we deserve. Write on this.
Stephanie’s definition of flirting: ‘Trying to get attention that I don’t deserve.’

Q4 What does living amends look like to you with the hardest person in your life?
(This may be your husband, child, boss, neighbour, sponsor, whomever. Somebody that really has hurt you with the way they react and to whom you know you need to make living amends).

Love and tolerance is our code. Living amends means going to God, having Quiet Time, having an Action Plan, then having accountability so you do what you say you are going to do. Being a positive person is the best living amend.

Some people do not need to know the harms we did to them. Instead, we can let them know what a blessing they are in our lives. It is possible to be positive and tell even challenging people what a blessing they are. Indeed, it is the most difficult people who give us the deepest teaching on how to live a sober life.

You do not push, pull, prod, dominate, manipulate, criticise, ever, instead you speak your piece with ‘I ‘ or ‘Me’ statements. “I need you to know that that action really hurts me and it feels you don’t respect me. I know you are not doing it on purpose .”(That is the living amend). You are telling them something about their behaviour and how it is affecting you negatively. “I know you are not doing it ion purpose, I just want you to know how it is affecting me.”

Living amends is sharing our lives with people, not being defensive, but instead always trying to rephrase things so I take responsibility for myself and my feelings but also being honest with them so I don’t have a resentment that lives in the middle of our relationship.

Ends

Recording For July 7, 2016

(week 235) 7 July 2016 12 Step Big Book All Addictions Workshop

To join the members list, be sent the soul work and/or if you would like a buddy, contact:
sue7263@aol.com

8am EST Tuesdays workshop (same tel. no.) studying Bill W’s biography ’Pass It On’ .
callback: 641 715 3900 pin 298913#

If you would like to contact Stephanie
stephaniew324@gmail.com

Big Book: Steps 8 and 9.

From Page 76:3 ‘Now we need more action without which we find that “Faith without works is dead.”
until Page 77 line 14: ‘…He is going to be more interested in a demonstration of good will than in our talk of spiritual discoveries.’

Soul work

‘Now we go out to our fellows and repair the damage done in the past.’

Look up: repair

Q1. On page 76 near the end of the third paragraph in the margin alongside this sentence write: ‘God’
If we haven’t the will to do this, we ask until it comes.

Q2. ‘Our real purpose in making amends and living in recovery is to fit ourselves to be of maximum service to God and the people about and around us.’
Write on this and share with your buddies.

Q3. Page 77, line 12: underline: set right the wrong
‘But our man is sure to be impressed with a sincere desire to set right the wrong.’

N.B. If we are prone to self-denigration remember ‘none of us are that good at being bad.’

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Recording For June 23, 2016

(week 233) 23 June 2016 12 Step Study All Addictions Big Book workshop

Step 8: Made a list of all persons we had harmed and became willing to make amends to them all.”

To join the members list, be sent the soul work and/or if you would like a buddy, contact:
sue7263@aol.com

8am EST Tuesdays workshop (same tel. no.) studying Bill W’s biography ’Pass It On’ .
callback: 641 715 3900 pin 298913#

If you would like to contact Stephanie
stephaniew324@gmail.com

Donations are urgently needed towards the cost of the website.

Please send to:
Stephanie Whiting
P O Box 531
North Pembroke
MA 02358

or via Pay Pal on the website: 12stepstudyworkshop.com (click on Thursday).

Step 8: Made a list of all persons we had harmed and became willing to make amends to them all.”

Big Book page 76, beginning of third paragraph:

‘Now we need more action, without which we find that “Faith without works is dead.” Let’s look at Steps Eight and Nine. We have a list of all persons we have harmed and to whom we are willing to make amends. We made it when we took inventory. We subjected ourselves to a drastic self-appraisal..”

12 x 12 Page 77. Step 8.

Soul work

Q1. Re-read your 4th step. And ask God: How did I hurt/harm this person? You see where you were selfish and how you acted out. You may have cut the person out of your life, been nasty and you may have gossiped. You will see whether you were dishonest, and your self-seeking behaviour – that is the harm right there.

Pray pray pray to have the right attitude to make these amends.

It is only by talking about specific issues that we get to the general principle.
In this case we go to the specific on the card and we get to the bigger principle.

Step 8 is all about coming into willingness to make amends to them all.

12 x 12 page 77: First paragraph page 77

Soul work:

We consider how, with our newfound knowledge of ourselves, we may develop the best possible relations with every human being we know.’
Q1. Put a bracket around this and beside it: write GOAL

[We live in reality. We learnt from our mistakes so that today we can live in the best possible relationship with every human being we know].

Q2. Continue writing 3 x 5 cards – and if you would like to, share them with your buddy or buddy group.
[Let God work through the group. Of course no feedback. How does it sound to you when you read it aloud? Keep going to God asking: Is that what they need to hear from me?]

Q3. If you were to make an amends today what is your motive?
Keep checking your motive and keep going to your God and your buddy group.

Questions
Again, good generalship, if there is question, perhaps about what you want to say or whether you have hurt and harmed someone, bring the 3 x 5 card to me either at the workshop or off-line one to one: stephaniew324@gmail.com

The main question to ask is: God show me what you want me to know about this amend.
And I guarantee God will show up.

Amends:
We are only in the preparation stage and it is where we bring our recovery from the inside to the outside and into the world. You are telling people: I am in a recovery programme, I am working on myself, I see that I harmed you in this particular way.

Amends need to be done with the utmost wisdom. Amends is not just a quick: I am so sorry. To say that will hurt them even more than not saying anything. It needs to be done with the right heart. That is why I am going to belabor Step 8. Just like step 7 where you really saw you were the problem, and our mistaken thinking was the problem. In all our relationships in our whole life – it has been our mistaken thinking. Now we have tools to learn from those past mistakes and to really become women of wisdom. So in Step 8 we go very very slow and cautious. in step 8,

If God puts somebody in my path I had forgotten, I can say: Can I speak to you privately for a few minutes? Then say: I am in a 12 step recovery programme and when I knew you in high school I was really really fearful and unhappy and I was jealous of you and I was not kind to you and I am really sorry for that. Today if you came into my life I would not treat you like that but I hope you accept my amends. And that is it.

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Recording for June 16, 2016

NOTICE: Unfortunately, The Recording Is Not Available For This Meeting.

(week 231-2 ) 16 June 2016 12 Step Study All Addictions Big Book Workshop

(wk 231 on June 9 2016 when Stephane was away – see week 230 for soul work)

Step 8: Made a list of all persons we had harmed and became willing to make amends to them all.”

To join the members list, be sent the soul work and/or if you would like a buddy, contact:
sue7263@aol.com

8am EST Tuesdays workshop (same tel. no.) studying Bill W’s biography ’Pass It On’ .
callback: 641 715 3900 pin 298913#

If you would like to contact Stephanie
stephaniew324@gmail.com

Donations are urgently needed towards the cost of the website.
Stephanie says: We could use some money. We just had the third attack on our website in six months and had to buy more protection. I will put every penny I have to protecting your computer from our website. Thank you to Debbie and Linda for your help.”

Please send to:
Stephanie Whiting
P O Box 531
North Pembroke
MA 02358

or via Pay Pal on the website: 12stepstudyworkshop.com (click on Thursday).

Step 8: Made a list of all persons we had harmed and became willing to make amends to them all.”

Big Book page 76, beginning of third paragraph:

‘Now we need more action, without which we find that “Faith without works is dead.” Let’s look at Steps Eight and Nine. We have a list of all persons we have harmed and to whom we are willing to make amends. We made it when we took inventory. We subjected ourselves to a drastic self-appraisal..”

Steps 8 and 9 are very much action steps

Q1. On 3 x 5 cards write the person’s name, contact details and the exact nature of the harm done. Divide these into three piles:

1. I am ready to make the amends now
2. I am not yet ready
3. I never want to make amends. I don’t know if I need to make amends.

Pray about all the cards and take them to Quiet Time – especially those on the third pile.

Go back to when you took inventory (which is some time ago now). Remember all you have to write on the card is the name, contact information, the exact nature of your wrong. You may not know the exact nature of your wrong so do a step 10 – continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong and promptly admit it – did I really harm them? If there is a question mark put in the third pile and keep asking God.

So this is your action right now: Writing and praying.

We are separating steps eight and nine. We are looking at just step eight. We need time:

TIME: Things I Must Experience.

‘We subjected ourselves to a drastic self-appraisal. ‘

Write this down: Pride comes before the fall.

‘The block to 100 percent honesty about 100 percent of our lives comes from pride.
and underneath this is fear of not being good enough.’

Q2. Write about that.

Please scour your life. Are you being 100 percent honest? Please bring this to God. Honesty is the key to the rest of the steps. If you reach step 8 and find yourself not being 100 percent honest about 100 percent of your life to people who expect you to have an intimate relationship with them: groups you belong to, your sponsor, spouse, buddy group, etc, write about it.
Stephanie says: ‘I believe that there is no recovery without honesty.’

Q3. Take an incident in your life, There is your story (with lots of times mistaken thinking), the other person’s story and somewhere in the middle there is the truth. Write about that – it is what step 8 brings to the light.

IMPORTANT! Do not under any circumstances make amends.

‘The action right now is to write out the cards. We are not making amends.
If you see someone you need to make amends to, make a living amends: be kind, considerate friendly. When you go to make amends and you have been kind considerate friendly, it will be easier. Remember: God is in charge.

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